I can relate to some of that. Maybe you should think of the positive. You don't have acne now. And being a B you can wear those wonderful and revealing dresses that large chested women can't fit into. Trust me, you're clothing options are a lot better off. A lot of the things you see as imperfections, other people see as things that make you you.

I'm sure you'll be feeling more comfortable with yourself soon. I can understand the need to vent.

your not alone

i have crap self esteem

i starve

i bing

i purg

i hate it

but i do it anyway

[lildarkshadow]

sorry! i forgot to include my cell.

8476091988

I understand exactly how you're feeling. I struggle with major anxiety. I'm on anti depressants and other anxiety meds.

No matter how you see yourself, know that you are beautiful. Very beautiful, and God loves you just the way you are. He made you, and loves you so much that he sent his son Jesus Christ to die on the cross for you.

I understand everything you feel. GOD understands. Right now he's weeping and doesn't want you to feel this way.

I know I don't know you, but I truly beleive you will soon be free of this depression and anxiety. I will be praying for you non stop. I can assure you of that.

Before I go, I'd like to say a quick prayer for you,

God,

This girl is crying out for help and freedom from her aches and pains and physical and mental pain. Lord, I pray that you comfort her. Please show her how precious she is, and help her to feel loved, beautiful and in control of her life. Father, I ask that you help her through this extremely rough patch in her life. I ask that you have your angels surround her at all times. Help her to feel comfort, and happiness.

Amen.

Alright, I really hope this has helped at least a little bit. If you ever need ANYTHING...i mean ANYTHING. Prayer, encouragement, or just someone to talk to and vent to, you can always talk to me. Here's my e-mail: le.delaney@gmail.com and my cell if you want. I have unlimited texting, so feel free to call or text.

God Bless you! You are beautiful, and very precious to this world!

*~Lauren~*

The scary thing is that I really wouldn't put it past someone to make an Aliens Vs. The Demon Barber film.

I've been trying to socialise more myself, but it can be really difficult sometimes. 

"Everyone tells me I need to socialise more but I don't know how. It's much easier said than done."

Don't I know it.

Maybe you could ask one of those friends you hang out with in class to do something with you one night. They'd probably return the favor at some point and you can meet their friends. Presto. Instant social group. And you're already spent two nights not alone.

It was a thought.

better times will come sweet Rosie

have patience

hugs

ah he is a chauvinistic pig  so dont pay attention to him

there is nothing wrong with not being a virgin and besides what a boring world this would be if sex was just for baby making

hugs

you know sweetie

his parents havent been able to  break you guys apart so it isnt going to happen that easily,

distance is difficult I know that for sure

hang in there

hugs

connie

Rosie!!!

hugs

how about if you act a bit indifferent for a while

be polite be you but if he doesnt call you or email you or text you dont do it...dont ask him why he didnt do it just let it slide,

maybe he is too sure about you

I am not telling you to be mean just distance yourself a tiny bit...give it a try and tell me how that went

once again hugs

and smile!!

I am glad to hear that you spent time with him

and get everything ready for december

remember to have lots of fun

hugs

c.

Congrats on your trip to Paris and I hope that the strick ends before you get there

I am glad that you are feeling good with your grandparents

hugs

connie

Hun

long distance relationships arent easy

you have to give him a bit of space and dont talk about the problem with his parents over and over , it will frustrate him

just try to avoid it until he brings it up

be positive

he loves you

if he didnt love you  he would have already  said bye to you

just be smart and keep your cool

dont fight with him because in the end his parents win

take care

tons of hugs

connie

just be patient hun

things will work out

hugs

She wasn't just a week pregnant, though. She found out last week.

She said she'd been feeling extremely sick for some time, and she decided to go to the doctor (because she realized she'd missed her period) And he gave her a pregnancy test. She guessed about a month, maybe longer.

Ruby

PS. I know Jen's going through some tragic stuff right now, and I'm really trying to be as supportive as I can. Have a great day =)

I am sorry that both of your families cant accept you guys.

be strong hun

hugs

The dress is stunning!!!!!!!

I prefer the black one but if you have blue or green eyes the blue will bring out their color even more.

take care

tons of love

c.

hahahaha that was so funny

take a pic of the dress and post it

I bet youll look great and F will be beaming

hugs

My sweet Rosie

stay strong

write as much as you can and enjoy

transportation is expensive everywhere

hugs

c.

Dearest Rosie

dont pay attention to that obnoxious comment.  About the parental unit just dont pay attention they are stressed most likely and took it out on you.  I feel for you about the whole F situation with his parents, french are snobs ... most of them anyways.  Just be patient, try to avoid any confrontation whatsoever with F. it isnt his fault.  Take care

hugs

c.

I am  sorry my sweet Rosie that things are going like this.  But now is the time for you and F. to stick together, support each other in everything.  Screw his parents!!!!  He should start to stand his ground a bit more with the due respect of course.  Tons of love

dont be sad

c.

The more his parents pressure him the more you support him and the more his parents hate you and are mean  to you the more he will love you.  His family was so disrespectful and mean to you, shame on them.   And everyone says that the French are the polite ones ..hahahaha seems to me that you should never place foot at their home.  Sorry about your cat.  I hope you see him soon.

Take care sweet Rosie

hugs

connie

have tons of fun

being different for a nite sounds really cool

enjoy

hugs

connie

It didnt work out.  I do love him still but he let people and silly things get in the middle of us.  I hope your summer is awesome.  Have a great shopping session and have a great weekend.

Hugs

connie

I am so happy for you

at least it worked for one of us

take care

and enjoy the time with your sweet F.

tons of hugs

c

enjoy life and  be sure to get everything ready for your bfs visit

I will visit mine this weekend

hugs

Dear Rosie

I ma glad that you had such a great time with your guy.

You deserve  to have an amzing guy...you are amazing as well

I hope that his 2 months in England go really slow and that you have the time of your life

tons of love

c

Aw wow, you're back already???

Welcome home then! That seemed so short..haha. I bet you had a great time. I can't wait to see the pics. Just put the ones you want up, can't wait to see what Paris looks like. :]

Hope you'll get to talk to F soon. You 2 sound like such a nice couple!!!

Love, <333
Kat

oh la la.

Bonne chance...if I am not wrong it means good luck my french is rusty.  hahahaha

hugs and have loadz of fun with your love

Take care!!!

Have a great time! :]

<3

Kat

Sweet Rosie

I wish you the best of lucks on your trip.

Have tons of fun and take loadzzzz of cute piccy's

post them at least a couple ...plss for me...

hugs

c

ZOMG!!!

4 days to go??????  Wow!!!

This must be hella exciting! Remember, lotsa pics of Paris cos I'll prolly never get to see it! (not for a long time anyway and if I get rich lol)

It's fun to dress up sometimes but hey, it's good that you're not obsessing! There's way more to looks and you wanna have a good time. ((:   Your bf will love you no matter what yeah?? :D

Goshhhh. Crazy. This whole trip sounds so perfect! And in a place like Paris. *sigh*

I hope you have the bestest time ever Rosie!

<3

Kat

boys are wierd, he didnt speak me and now... he's like... I love you?

xxx

thanks for your comment =D

Ohhh that's nice! you are going to paris to see your bf! Well... on 1st april im going to england for visit a friend ^^

Hope you have a great time there and... don't worry about the travel, will be great ;)

saddy.

You're soooooooo lucky! I can imagine how crazily excited you must be!!! hehehe.

PARIS!!! Wowwwwwww. :D

You take care of yourself and have the best time ever! If you can, please take heaps of pics! I just love seeing scenery from foreign places I haven't been. =.=  Lol, jks!!! I hope you could do that. ((:

<3

Kat

Yay hope you have a great time.

I am travelling on april too!

wow a smuggler that sounds like the early colonial times ...lol

have  a great time and hope he is as great as always

big  hugs

Dear Rosie,

It makes me happy to read your entry.

It all seems to be working fantastic for you and F.

You are going to France then he is coming to live with you for 2 months and then you are having summer togetherand meeting his family.

Dont let anxiety pull you down.  Just breathe deeply.

Wow  congrats on all the great things that are happening...all my best wishes for you sweety.

Big hugs

Connie

Yay for you! ((:

Just be good for your parents yeah? But you know that. =D  

I think that's so nice of them to let him stay.

Hope you guys have a great time!

<3

Kat

OMG...OMG...YAY.

I´m so happy for you guys Rosie. You will be together for 2 months.

Good luck.

Big Hugs

C.

Hi!

Well, I love my family, yah know??And You shold worry about her.

gtg sorry

Hannah

I'm glad you're seeing a doctor bout all this. Cause I kinda had that problem too..well I have like mild depression sorta, and I was having trouble sleeping so I went to the doctor's and they helped me out. I have that thyroid problem you mentioned. The blood-test isn't so bad! Really.. just if you do have it, just focus on something else. Like F. Lol. Haha, I'm serious. It'll be okay. (:  And the thing about blood tests is it can find out nearly everything..it'll make you feel a lot better..like to know what's up with you, if there is anything. Trust me.  

Sorry to hear bout your lil cousin. That's really sad. ):   I hope she's got support.. Try talking to her perhaps? Don't make any assumptions but maybe she needs someone and can't reach out on her own.. You're a nice person so I'm sure she won't mind.

Hope things get better, take care okay? Let me know how the doctor's thingo goes.

<3

Kat

Hey, Blondes Rock!
lol

Anyways, all my brothers and sisters ae horrible!!!A set of triplets that are only 5 months, not a good place.Its me mom and my lil brother always feeding and changing.Brother is only a year younger.And your cousin.I used to cut when my dad first went to Texas base and then I had to get help.Counsler first then pro.

bye

Hannah

Ah yes, the memories of Aqua <3  Hope everything works out for the best :)

xoMary

Dear Rosie

I am sooo happy that you are going to paris and the day after my bday!  I wish i could go too.  My friend Robin lives there and he has been naggin me about visiting him for almost a year.  I wish you the best of lucks.

hugs

C

Awwww wow!!!! You're going to Paris!!!!!!!! That's awesome! You're soo lucky!!

And hey welcome back too. Lol.

Your bf sounds so sweet. ((:  Hope you have a nice valentine's day!

Gotta go...got stupid homework to do. >_<

Love,
Kat

Sweety ,

I feel sad that you are soo stressed out.

Have faith  that your exams will be fine.

You should go pamper yourself ...maybe get your nails done, eat some nice ice cream, take a long walk...  everything will work out fine.

Take care

Hugs

C.

Dear  Rosie , 

It makes me really happy that he is such a great guy and makes you very happy.  Well it seems that on April we are going to Paris.  YAY.  I have a mile long list of places you should got to.  My friend Robin lives there and he tells me all the time I should go.  Hope your exams turn out excellent and let the planning begin.  Take care hugs.

Connie

Paris sounds so much fun.

I have a friend there that keeps telling me that I have to go visit him..LOL he doesn´t get that I have a bf.  I think he has a thing for me.  Well hopefully I will soon read here that you are going to Paris...YAY.  Glad to know your family is ok with F.  Take care Rosie.  hugs C.

aww how sweet. and sad too. but at least it went well. if that was me and i was sayn bye i would have went crazzzy. i cant wait till i see tyler. i know itll be great. and its good to no that u actually met your love from online and met him and things went well its just good to know with me being in the same place and all. anyways how long have u guys known each other or went out? answer soon as u can plz.

thx

~*kt*~

Omgosh, you met him for real!!! Wow....

I'm so glad everything went well. You're so lucky.. (:

Kat.

Dear Rosie ,

I am truly happy for you.  He turned out to be everything you hoped for.  To bad it was only for three days.  You need to plan your visit asap.  Sorry I am a hopeless romantic.  At least for you it went well.  Hugs.  Connie

Glad that you and F had fun!  Very romantic!

  Have a blessed day!,

      Jewel 

Omgosh, you're born on New year's day??? How interesting!

Happy 18th Rosie!! Hope you have an awesome day and all your wishes come true!

Love,
Kat

Hey thanks so much for the comment.

Have a happy new year and best of luck with everything. (:

Love,
Kat

  I am pulling for you and hoping that things work out in a way that will bring you Joy!

  You're very welcome!,

       Jewel

(((((((((((((Rosie))))))))) Thank you so much for your compassionate note.

  I'm soooooo glad that you were able to talk to your mom and that is okay with you meeting F! YAY

  Are you two just friends or something more?

 Will he be coming to your house to meet you?

I'm wishing you the best with this!,

      Jewel

I think that your letter is very mature..I hope that your mom takes it well..I am sure that she loves you very much.

  Best wishes,

     Jewel

Dear Rosie,

I think the letter is a good one.  I hope your mom understands.  I am so happy for you and F.  I hope it all goes well.  I look forward to reading all the details.  Best of lucks and once again happy b-day.  LOL It´s funny I know but i´ll  say it until I know how it  went . Take care.the best of  lucks .connie.

Merry Christmas!!!

Hope you had a great day. (:

~Kat

I totally understand how you feel about your guy.  I met someone here and he means the world to me.  I´ll be with him soon.  I hope his visit turns out gr8.  take care. aka angelofsorrow

  I'm glad that you are both happy and inlove!

   Heart Hugs for missing your sweety..I miss mine too.

  Merry Christmas!,

      Jewel

Hehe okay :) Thanks. So theres no chance right? Because then everyone would be getting pregnant without having sex right. Sperm cant travel through clothing right?

   I am sooooo glad that you had such a lovely time with your family.  Suicide is sooo sad.  Congrats on being in college. YAY you!  What are you studying to become?

  I hope that your day is filled with Blessings,

            Jewel

   I also go to councilling.  I hope that you are able to get in soon to get some help with your stress levels. It must be very tough to have exams. 

   Sounds like you have quite the romance.

   Sounds like you ar eonly asking for what you need at Christmas.

  I hope that your holidays are Blessed,

          Jewel

Well, thanks for your comment. (I despise them, but there are still lots in my country --- how the hell do I get rid of them, but without having to be an assassin about this?)

Nah, kidding. I'm still not that heartless.

Anyway, you seem to be having a wonderful plan for The New Year's Eve. Well, have fun!

Take care and best of luck. (and take care again! Sorry.. but yeah, you know..first meeting and all.. >_< )

I hope it works out for you.. <3

Kat.

I agree, material things aren't even that important anymore... really.. people spend so much money and stuff on presents during this time, but they don't even last.. and you don't need presents to show someone how much you love them! : )

Christmas isn't bout all the commercial stuff.. don't feel bad.. Well I don't know if you know but I am a Christian.. and yeah.. I guess even it's taken me a while to get over the other side of it. The true meaning of Christmas.. to celebrate the birth of Jesus.. It's brought me so much joy.. I reallyyy don't need presents this year..or ever.. ( presents would be nice haha) but yeah.. I've juss got something so much more meaningful in my life now...everything else kind of..fades away..

Well, hope your Christmas wishes come true for you. : )

Love,

Kat.

Sorry to hear bout this.. I hope you guys meet up and everything goes okay.. Be careful and all kay?

And yeah, I think it sounds way more reasonable if he came after your birthday or whenever you said cos yeah.. I'm sure you're cool with it right? And that way it'd work out..

Well, best of luck with things!

Kat.

ya i totally freak out when i cant talk to my love.it literally makes me depressd when theres somethn wrong with the computer.i hate it. i can imagine the pain with  his comp in his dorm. but at least it comes back on...

and have u seen a pic of F? how long have u known him?

[ktpisces09]

Wow...goodluck with meeting "him". =p  he sounds sweet ^^

And congrats on the new brother I guess?? Even if you don't feel warm and fuzzy...like wow! o.x  I always wanted a little brother or sister..but if I had one..I bet I wouldn't be all excited..heheh..

And hope things get better with your mum... keep strong!

Kat.

Hellos, juss wanted to stop by..and thank you for leaving comments lately. I appreciate it...things aren't so good with Drew..but yeah...I'm hoping for a miracle..

How are you doing? Wow...all this stuff about your birthday and year..pretty interesting...!

Take care and talk to ya soon!

Kat.

:D i'm glad you found the right one then. I'm actually glad i found a good one and a sh*t one, cause like i said, now i can tell the difference lol.

Hope you have a great day!!

Lauren

Hey thanks so much for commenting..! And sorry I haven't been on your diary for a while...been so busy...

I hope you're doing alright... your guy sounds really funny and sweet.. ^_^  Hope things are going well there too...

Yeah highschool is super stressful for me atm too... ahhhhh. Exams soon.... no time to do anything and seriously need to study!

Wow...what's fireworks night?? That sounds awesome.. hehe.. I love fireworks.. Well enjoy all the birthdays and eveyrthing... and yeah talk to you soon..! : )

Love you lots,

Kat.

i am also rather bored...

-ava

Ahhh I wrote you a note but it all got deleted.....gahhh I hate it when things like that happen. : (

I'm sorry.. All I can say is... you can always let everything out here...And I know lots of people with issues with their parent/s... it sucks....but you're doing the best you can..and I prolly couldn't handle that if it were me..but yeah.. I think all you can do, is what you're doing now...you're being patient with your mum even she is obviously being super unreasonable... Hang in there...

*hugs* : (

Kat.

P.S  sorry again, I did write more on the first time...but yeah..computers are gayy! X_X

Hellos! ^_^ Thanks for leaving me a message back. I added you to my favourites okies?

Hope to get to know you better!

Kat.

Hey I hope things get better... I know..life can juss get frustrating sometimes when everyone juss presumes things..and yeah I know you're not trying to be emo. : ) ehhr, I juss read through your first entry cos it caught my attention cos I'm kinda in the same situation but not as well.. >.< well that guy sounds really nice..I hope you guys stay friends and stuff. All I can say is try not to rush things...sometimes things really stuff up when we do that... and yea, juss enjoy it I guess. ^^

Come and write here whenever you're depressed or anything. It really helps plus there are really nice people here..I get a lotta encouragement here. ^_^

Kat.

Wow, sounds alot like me.  Everything you mentioned I have dealt with.  I am also a victim of depression.  You need to go be seen by a doctor.  I was prescribed zoloft, and it has done wonders for me.  I still have my moments, but I feel more like myself.  Basically, it is a chemical inbalance in your brain.  It is also a way of thinking.  It is hard to change that...believe me I know.  You need to look past all of the things that are wrong with your life.  Concentrate on the good things.  Force yourself, even when it seems it lost its luster.  Find the things that move you.  The things that make you want to fight.  Even the simple things.  The sun shining on your face.  The wind rsutling through the trees.  Try to find something, anything that makes you feel good. 

I understand what you're feeling about your mom.  In our youth we always hate that we are restricted by our parents and by the fact that they say "no" just because they can.  I am only 20 years old and I can tell you now, that when you get a little older you will be thankful that your mother didn't let you do some of the things you wanted.  I am not saying your French guy is bad or anything only that you have a good mom.  Some parents I know let their children do whatever they want and don't care what happens to them.  Be thankful that your mom loves you enough to say "no" sometimes.  I also understand the strong feelings we have for others and although I have no real advice to give on that aspect, because that is strictly between you and yours, I wish you luck.